化妆

《生命的化妆》

三流的化妆是脸上的化妆，

二流的化妆是精神的化妆，

一流的化妆是生命的化妆。

三流的化妆是脸上的化妆:

有人称之为掩饰缺陷，

有人则称之为乔装欺骗。

二流的化妆是精神的化妆：

有人称之为焕发风韵，

有人则才称之为延缓衰老。

一流的化妆是生命的化妆，

有人称之为心身调理，

有人称之为自卑造技。

凡人亦悠出清、淡、真……

然而，

女人乃为男人择为不平凡。

我则言说化妆乃是掩饰和伪装之道，

掩饰自己先天的缺陷，

伪装自己后天的完美，

活出的是唯一的自己，潇洒的自己，真实的自己。

Cyberjaya University College of Medical Sciences(CUCMS)

i start my journey of medical study in Cyberjaya University College of Medical Sciences since 1/7/2009,
the journey will take me 6 years of study life including 1 year foundation study + 5 years medical study.
From here,
it all begin with a foundation study in CUCMS, Street Mall Campus;
however,
i now proceed my medical study in CUCMS, Invent Q Jaya Campus.


Just like all others,
i had never hear about CUCMS before in any of my life circumtences since CUCMS is a newly establish medical school, which aged about 6 years.
Yet, i get to learn more about my medical school since then...


I'm still proudly to mention that i'm a CUCMSian, who study in Cyberjaya University College of Medical Sciences, MBBS course, although there are forest of rumors about my college.
Hence,
i would like to make clear that why im falling in love with my college.


Despite all the other glamour UNIVERSITYs, my college is just simply a simple building standing on the intelligent city and the international image of the selected township of its location, Cyberjaya.


It never been as large as others,
It never been as huge as others,
but it has been as successful as others,
and it has been as established as others.


i would said that CUCMS is an unique college which doesn't aimed to produce just another number of doctors,
but,
WE aimed to produce a holistic and competent medical healthcare profession who are intellectually, emotionally and spiritually-balanced, according to the philosophy of our college.


The Philosophy
"The harnessing of human potentials in a comprehensive manner to produce holistic healthcare professionals who are intellectually, emotionally and spiritually-balanced is based on the principles of Islam and the obedience to the Almighty Allah."


What make CUCMS a unique medical school compare to others??
Firstly, the curriculum is very much student centered with minimum didactic teaching being done. Not only is the widely accepted problem based approach (PBL) being utilised, student centered learning (SCL), structured peer group discussion and presentation and self assessment online learning are also introduced right from the first year of study.


Secondly, students are exposed very early on to the real world practice which they will experience upon completing their training. At CUCMS, the innovative Clinical and Health Exposure and Training (CHET) is introduced to students from the first semester of the course itself. Besides that, clinical skills training (CST) is being included in the credit since first year medical study which aimed to produce healthcare professionals with the passion to care.


All in all, the curriculum is designed to train practitioners of the future to be ready to use the latest of what technology can offer and at the same time, maintain human aspects of medicine in line with the motto “Nurturing the Passion to Care”.


However, 
the most important criteria for what i'm impressed in CUCMS is "WE STUDY AND LIVE AS A BIG FAMILY"!
i would make any other stranger to believe that CUCMSian live as a big family regardless of creek and religion, where all the 3 main races(Malay, Chinese, Indian) live and study together under one big roof, unlike others university where isolation and satellite grouping take place among the students.


Besides that, CUCMS enforced on student welfare,
and that,
mentor-menti  concept is utilised.
* Students are divided into several small group where each group is assisted with specific mentor, who care for the curriculum and co-curriculum of the students. Moreover, reflection section will be held every week in order for the mentor to keep track on the welfare of the student while enhancing the relationship between the mentor and menti.
* All the mentors are make up by our own lectures whom most of them are actually Prof., Assoc. Prof, Senior Dr., and Dr.

I think CUCUMS is the only private UNIVERSITY/COLLEGE who is utilizing such as section/program that care for student welfare, and this make CUCMS a big family rather than an investing private university.


There are plenty more advantages and uniqueness of Cyberjaya University College of Medical Sciences(CUCMS) which i cannot even describe it in words.
It is a wonderfull experience to study in CUCMS and it is a honor to be a part of the big family.  



I LOVE BEING A MEDICAL STUDENT, AND I LOVE BEING A CUCMSian.
I LOVE CUCMS. 

sorry that i loved you

For all of the time that I tried for your smile
For making you think I was worth the while 
So your love love love love love would be mine
For sending you flowers and holding your hand
that no one was there to take a stand
but the love love love made us blind
and I'm so sorry that I hurt you

sorry that I fell through
sorry I was falling in love with you
I'm sorry that I came true
but sorry doesn't turn back time
For all that I have done to you
I wish that I could make it alright
so sorry that I loved you
Sorry that I needed you
sorry that I loved you
sorry that I held you tight
and I'm sorry for making you love me and saying goodbye
for being the one that taught you how to cry
It was love love love and it passed us by
for giving you every thing that you dreamed 
for taking it back when i fled the scene
sorry love for wasting your time
and I'm so sorry that I hurt you

sorry that I fell through
sorry I was falling in love with you
I'm sorry that I came true
but sorry doesn't turn back time
For all that I have done to you
I wish that I could make it right
so sorry that I loved you
Sorry that I needed you
sorry that I loved you
sorry that I held you tight

an apology now after all of this time
won't make any difference tonight
but I'm hoping I'm sorry will open your mind
to love love love in your life
sorry that i hurt you
sorry that I fell through
sorry I was falling in love with you
I'm sorry that I came true
but sorry doesn't turn back time
For all that I have done to you
I wish that I could make it right
sorry that i hurt you
sorry that I fell through
sorry I was falling in love with you


I'm sorry that I came true
but sorry doesn't turn back time
I'm sorry that I loved you
Sorry that I hurt you
I'm so sorry that I loved you
i'm so sorry that I hurt you
Sorry that I loved you
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ffS40XbwUZI

loser

翻阅一页页曾经记载的回忆，

恍然发觉，

原来我是个彻底的输家。

曾经，

我因距离失去了他，

我告诉自己也许成全是种幸福；

曾经，

我因条件失去了他，

我告诉自己也许错失是种幸福；

曾经，

我因家人失去了他，

我告诉自己也许放手是种幸福；

曾经，

多少个的曾经？

我因，

多少个的我因？

我告诉自己，

多少次的欺骗？

其实，我只是个输家！

Try hardly;

Losing completely;

Feeling terribly;

Cry tearfully;

I can’t deny that I’m really a loser.

I own nothing, but a lonely night which shade with tears in solo.

20th birthday

2/6/2011

it was crazy to went out for a movie one day before exam,

huh,

how dare im??

Pirates of Caribbean 4 in mid-valley with Akira.

then,

we went to Kuchai Lama, Station 1 for dinner.

hehe,

i had a surprise from him and i dont really expect for that.

1st cake of 20th birthday

 3/6/2011

exactly 12.00 am,

i received a birthday card under my door.

wow!!!

i first saw the BMW logo,

and all the wishes from my CUCMS colleague.

20th birthday card

then, 

i off to class for exam.

Basically,

im having exam and classes until 5pm throughout my birthday,

huh..

yet,

i received present from my house-mate and roommate too.

my eldest sister send me a box of fruit cake from Melaka,

along with few ANGPAU,

hehe..

is from my mum, dad, sis, uncle & aunty.

celebrated my birthday with stephen,

from Sunway - IOI Mall - Old Town White Coffee,

with my favorite TIRAMISU cake.

20th birthday..

ermh...
there is a friend who keep reminding me of my birthday along the week.
she has been reminding for 2 or 3 times already since last week,
hehe,
at least she still remember my birthday. (*o*)

in fact, surprisingly,
there is also one of the colleague who share the same birthday as me.
but,
i think both of us share the different personality and characteristic.
haha,
indirectly meant that  horoscope is inaccurate. (>.<)

actually,
i kinda have alot of wishes for this year birthday.
i wish to have a special birthday cake with lighting candles,
i wish to have a big bear bear,
i wish to have lots chocolate,
i wish to have 20 red roses,
of cause,
i wish to have someone special celebrating my birthday,
and,
i really wish to a special birthday, such as in Genting Highlands, beach or etc.

however,
all my wish will never come true.
as....................
i do not aspect my friend will be celebrating for me,
nor i have anyone to celebrate with.

Yet,
i plan to go out for movie by myself on that day after weekly exam.
hehe,
at least can enjoy myself for a day!! (@.@)

my 19th birthday cake by XXX

9 red roses with 2 cute bear bear

19th birthday present

wondering..

last year..
he was there beside me for my 19th birthday,
with 9 red roses,
and one big white lady birthday cake.

this year..
who will be there for me??
i hope there will be someone there for me..
at least someone...
(@,@)