最熟悉的陌生人

在你离开的七个多月里，

我学会了买醉自己。

麻痹自己不去心疼你，

麻醉自己不去思念你，

麻木自己不去理会你。

毕竟，

在没有你任何声息的日子里，

我做到了。

学习接受你离去的事实，

学习失去你独立的生活，

学习没有你孤独的单身。

然而，

偷偷地想念你，

偷偷地回忆你，

偷偷地查询你，

偷偷地关心你，

偷偷地问候你，

那些你不知道的事。

**********~~~~~**********

突入而来的消息，

悬空而来的信息，

你打乱了我的生息。

为什么？

为什么你如此地狠心？

为什么？

为什么你如此地自私？

狠心抛弃我，

自私缭乱我，

其实，

我痛恨你！

我乞求你，

乞求你不要刻意缭乱我的生活，

乞求你不要故意钩起我的记忆。

我恳求你，

恳求你如果爱上她了就不要再信息我。

Team Impact Malaysia Convoy & TT

After bowling,

We went to Shell Petrol Station for convoy gathering in Kelana Jaya (if I’m not mistaken).

ermh…it was only 8pm,

but the convoy time was at 9pm,

1 more hour to there…

Waiting,

Waiting,

Waiting,

waiting..waiting..waiting..9pm!!!

this was the first time I follow Akira & Team Impact Malaysia for official convoy,

it was awesome!!!

thumbs up!!!

hehehe…

p/s: I kept quite throughout the convoy though I like it very much..(Because I start sleepy already after 4 days of exhausting study for MSK final exam)

at last,

we reach our destination.

yamcha time!!!

It was a combined TT with auto Garage.

HUHUHU…

white & black BMW, BFF 66??

it seems familiar…

What the…….

yamcha, chatting;

yamcha, chatting…

until almost 12am,

the birthday song was sang loudly.

It was Jim Tan birthday.

Happy Birthday, Jim.

All after all,

I reach home at almost 12.30pm…

HUHUHU…

tired + exhausted!!!

without bath & change shirt,

I falled sleep straight away. (well, this is me. Dirty Cat)

But, pity Akira,

he has to drive back to Kepong. (>.<)

Thanks again, Akira.

You are so nice…..teddy bear!!!

hahaha…

“Jail Break” after Musculoskeletal Final Exam

After 5 weeks of musculoskeletal course subject,

Finally it came to the end.

What next then???

hehehe……

H-O-L-I-D-A-Y!!!

 I took the public transport to Mid-valley as to meet up Akira there;

However,

On my way there,

I met an Arabian at the central bus stop.

ermh..lets guess what he wants from me???

of cause it’ll be the very same dialogue.

hehehe……

he: “Hi, I’m XXXX. Nice to meet you”

me: “Arh….hi”

he: “May I know your name, please?”

me: “Arh….nick”

he: “Are you going mid-valley?”

me: “Arh…..ya”

he: “Excuses me, nick, May I have your phone number, please?”

me: “Arh…yes………………..”

he: “Or maybe I missed call you then”

me: “O….KAY….01X-XXXXXXX”

he: “Why there is nobody picked up the phone”

me: “Sorry, I left my phone. I’ll have the missed call then, don’t worry”

he: “so, when can I call you? May be tonight or tomorrow?”

me: “Arh…..I think tomorrow, cause I’m busy tonight”

he: “Thanks. I’ll call you tomorrow night. Enjoy your day. Nice to meet you”

me: “You too”

P/S: hahaha…..of cause the phone number will not be real (@, @)”””

Let’s forget about this part.

Then, I have my breakfast +lunch+ dinner in Mid-valley,

I was starving for the past few days in Cyberjaya.

I want to eat chicken chop!

I want to eat tiramisu!

hahaha…..i was hungry as an dinosaur.

Then, leisure time!!!

I played a sinlge game of bowling with Akira.

HUHU…first time in my life I strike bowling for 2 times;

WOW…miracle!!!

haha…..

but, Akira still played better than me.

(^o^)V

It’s really fun & enjoy.

Thank you, Akira.

being a medical student...

i remember the first time i told my mum that i would like to proceed my degree studied in Bachelor of Medicine & Bachelor of Surgery,
that was when i am 16/17 years old.

my mum look at me,
and she just told me that,
"just wait and see what is your result for spm."

why she answer me in that way??
well, i understand it.

no one seem to believe that i would take up this course.
why??
this is because my personality do not fit this course,
and alot people do not know that i would be that succeed in my educational.

however,
i managed to get the JPA scholarship which suppose to be oversea study program,
but i could only got the local scholarship.
it's good enough since it'll a full scholarship including my fees, expenses and living cost.
only 2000-3000 students are fortunate to take it each year.
i can be considered the lucky one.

after spending one year studied in foundation,
now i am currently a first year medical student in Cyberjaya University College of Medical Sciences(CUCMS).
i has a second class result for my medical school study although i am not the best, top student here.
i am proud being a medical student.

however,
life are going to be different here,
especially between me and my colleague.

i am not a typical medical student,

i love car,
i love speeding, racing, and drifting..
i love modified car.
i love anything about car.
this make me abit different from my colleague.

i am a little bit more socialize compare to my colleague,
of cause
the way i talk,
the way i communicate,
the way i dress,
the way i live,
is a totally different from all of them.

hence,
i dont really mix closely with my colleague in leisure time.

anyway,
i am proud being a medical student,
i still has the passion being a medical student,
while living my life in a very different way.

Conclusion,
being a medical student doesnt mean that being a NUDDY!!

hehe..
live the way you like.

words of a lie..

People told me that “He is a play boy.”

You told me that “I am not a play boy. Seriously, I am not.”

People told me that “He will never get serious in any relationship.”

You told me that “I am tired of the playing life. I would like to settle down with a stable relationship.” “Baby, I really want to bring you back home to show my parents, especially my mum.”

People told me that “He will never care you, never contact you unless he needs something (???).”

You told me that “Sorry, baby. I know all the while I always abandoned you. Not because I am not serious with the relationship, it just I am already getting used to this type of relationship. I promise I will care you more.”

People told me that “Just break with him, you are just hurting yourself.”

You told me that “Do you believe me, baby?”

I remember every single word that came out from your lie,

But I chose to believe in you.

I told you that “No matter what people say about you, I insist in believing you. You had my 100% belief, but I hope you don’t hope me. This is the last chance I am giving you, and what is your choice?”

You told me that “My choice is YOU.”

After 8 days of couple,

I request the first break.

You drove all the way from klang to cyberjaya with about 50 minutes journey to explain to me.

I forgive you because I was melted and touch.

But,

Things going same round and round.

This is the way you treat a girlfriend??

You don’t seem like you care.

1 or none call per day,

Maximum 2-5 message per day.

After 17 days of couple(8/3/2011),

I request the second/the last break.

You told me that “I hv ntgh to said”

I told you that “ok.bye”

I don’t think it worth for what you are treating me!!

again..

finally,
i decided to ended the relationship again.
haiz,
i know this relationship will never ever work out that way.
i should let it go before i get hurt again.
i can clearly saw he reflect on you,
i am afraid of the same ending,
hence,
i request for the break.
sorry, i cant afford to play with you.
and obviously,
what people told me about you is true!

i love you

people tell,
people gossip,
people consult,
and people warn..

but,
i insist on what is real,
true to my heart,
i love you,
and i believe you..

i wish the rumor never be real,
i hope the history never be happen,
i love you and i miss you..